A reminder for myself.

Things that I’ve learnt from what has happened.

1) Don’t trust someone too easily because they’ll in time bite you from your back or even worse, slowly through your heart. Especially a guy.

2) Don’t make fool of yourself, because you’ll be fooled very easily.

3) Even best friends can stab you, so don’t rely so much on your best friend. I’ve been in this condition where (a) She stole my boyfriend, yes, she was my best friend but now not so. And (b) Your own best friend makes use of you just because you’re a good student, and she’s trying to spoil you through blaming things that you don’t do.

4) Don’t get into a relationship with your good friend, because if things doesn’t go through the flow, you’ll eventually break your friendship.

5) Never hope so much from someone who’s really good in socializing because you don’t want to get embarrassed on your own for your stupid one-sided love.

6) Never believe when a guy say “I love you forever” because it will NEVER happen. And don’t fall for stupid unlikely promises.

7) When your mom say that your boyfriend is ‘not-that-loyal type’, believe it. Because your mom gives the best advice for your own good. Believe me, because I’ve actually been in that state not once but twice.

8) When you’re broken, don’t let that stupid feeling of yours control your whole brain. Wanna know why? Because that stupid feeling doesn’t make any use and it doesn’t even make any difference to what he did to you. How? Just think that there are better guys out there who deserves you.

9) Being beautiful outside is the worst thing:
Because (a) A guy that wants you to be his girlfriend would only actually want to show off your outside beauty and not your inner beauty. (b) Even your friend, will only want to be friends with you just because you’re pretty so that they’ll get more friends and it’ll help make them a popular kid. (c) Having so much admirer doesn’t help. (d) It doesn’t make any difference with being a bimbo.

10) Don’t get confused by the word ‘like’ and ‘love’ because they’re not even the same. If a guy say that he likes you, then it’ll just be a temporary feeling but if he say that he loves you, then his feeling will last much longer than the guy that likes you. And if you like a person, just forget about it because it’s just for a while but if you really like that person just go ahead and like him, it’s not even wrong but if you get heartbroken then blame yourself and not him because it’s you who puts so much stupid hope on him.

11) If a guy tells you that he likes you, don’t get mistaken easily. Because you may not be the only one person that he likes, there maybe more than 3 or 4 or more girls that he likes.

12) The most important thing is that, don’t be too naïve.

13) The best thing to get your stress relieved after a break-up is to swear him with what he deserves. Or just let other things get into your mind so that you don’t get too stressed up. And don’t give any space for another chance for those kind of guys.

So far this is what I have experienced. Well, I’m not saying that I have so much experience in this that I’m an expert. But it’s just that, I can’t stand to be a fool of myself and for everyone.

I’m not giving advice to anyone, so no offense. It’s actually just a reminder for me, to not get myself be fooled by anyone and of course, myself. I’m still hating myself right now, because I can sometimes forget about what have happened and that I didn’t actually learn for my mistake earlier.

I’m not saying that I don’t trust guys anymore, but it’s just hard for me to trust them because of what I have experienced. And I’m still thinking of how to get rid of those heartache which keeps following me since 2-3 years ago. Because it really hurts. I can’t even see or even read his **ex-** status on facebook because it just hurts!. And being cheated, is the worst thing which I’d like to avoid since I don’t want to get hurt for the third time. GOSH! I HURTS SO MUCH! I’m just a plain thin glass which can be broken easily, so guess that’s what I’ll still be in the future.

I want to escape from this hurting feeling which I’ve been able to get rid of in the past years, but it’s just that I don’t know why it’s coming back to me. I’m just hoping that this feeling will go away by tomorrow morning when I wake up from my sleep because it’s been haunting me since this morning at school. Felt like I wanted to cry, but it wouldn’t make any good it’ll only make people say that I’m just a crazy depressed little girl, but I’m not! AKU SAKIT HATI SAJA BAH ULEH IA!

I think atu saja kali, pasal aku inda sambung lagi. Ngalih ku sudah memikirkan pasal barang inda be-faedah.

DAMN DAY

Hello~, it's Monday and it's the starting of a long week. I dont know what will happen through out this week but hopefully it'll be less stressful than I thought.

Economics was sajuk this morning. Concentrated much. Wohoo..

GP debate was a disaster for mine. ARGHH! Why did I get so confused to the timing?? But nevermind at least I can give 2 points in 1 minute. And still Ms Fleur complimented my style of speaking, because everything just goes out from my mind when spoke tadi, and I didn't even look at my notes. And something happened after the debate, which I'm going to tell si Manis about.


Chemistry, well it was a no-lesson-session again. And we did an exercise again. My Chemistry homework given on Saturday is not finished yet, because I have no idea what the question means. So I figured out to ask durang si Mira lagi tomorrow.

Sociology, as si Manis had copy&paste from Sir Charles status.. we were given homework tadi but the due day will be next week Saturday, and we will also be given another essay question on Wednesday. Hmphh.. Ngalih..

Lunch.. well, had lunch.. makan mee goreng but I only ate half of it because I was full. Dont know why I got full after eating only half of it.

Lapas lunch around pukul 12.45pm turun ke bawah arah durang Nurin, we thought that AVA Room buka sudah, but then sudah kami kesana alum lagi buka.. so the whole class went to the PS table arah foyer, biasa lepak.. and si Manis was there. Manis.. I saw you too. Mau cakap dapan-dapan? hmmmm.. Malu lahh, urang lagi ramai.. haha..

Then we had Geo, at the AVA Room since Nazurah and Qianah had presentation. It was.. fun, and I didn't get sleepy. But.. haha.. my comment is that.. I dont think that they're actually explaining to the class. But anyways, it was really brave of them to be the first and second presenter.

Balik rumah ikut Uncle G Kudil tadi, and talked to Faiz about how bad I was during the debate. And I was really stressed out about it. Then Faiz said "Inda apa-apa tu.. haha, at least kau dapat elaborate 2 points in one minute.." Then okaylah, give up talking to him, karang mental ia pasal aku balik cakap yang aku teruk tadi masa becakap time debate. Haha.

And Manis ku.. aku rindu kau. :'( Banar ni inda mau tau apa lagi yang kan ku cakap tadi pagi?? ada pulang lagi yang kan ku cakap for pembuka kata tadi pagi, but I cant think of any word to say it. But anyways, at least jumpa Manis tadi.. so okay lahh..

I think that's all for now, because I have Economics notes to write, arranging GP papers, Chemistry homework to do, and Sociology research to be done. Inda ku mau batah-batah membuat lagi..

Remembering back the precious past and Family nowadays

EL FAMILIA BABY!~~

I'm revealing zaman kanak-kanak kami semua adi-beradi dan jua masa terkini. *eseh* HAHAHAHAHA!!


My sister, Ajah R; Me; Mom and eldest sister, Ka Dd. Funny isn't it? Kalau dulu dorang yang tinggi dari aku, tapi sekarang ani aku yang tinggi dari dorang..


This is Abang GRel, picture taken masa during naik haji dulu.. haha.


Abang Es at the end, Me in helmet and Ajah R next to me. Haha. AFTER MAIN GUSTI YAWWW! then tarus belajar. haha.


This is Abang Cupoi. Haha. Funny that he was not skinny before and if you look at him now, he's skinny but not too skinny.


This is me. Haha. Banyak mainan atu. Urang kaya mainan.. :P


My lil brother, Fathin. I think he was around 3 years old kh ni masa ani. I cant remember.


This is Abang Es. Haha! Dari dulu sudah marung-marung kalau lapas balik dari sekulah.


And nowadays pictures. ENJOY THE CRAZE!

Abang GRel fishing nothing at our house backyard pool. haha! adakah memancing disana dangan Abang GRais. LOLS!


Nabil and Isaac during first day of school at Chung Hwa Bandar, last year.


Me and Alai Isaac, main ombak! haha. I miss the beach.It was at Pantai Seri Kenangan. Back in 2008.


Playing around the beach.


From the top: Zaki, Isaac, Suhaid and Nabil.


While waiting for the BBQ-ed foods haha. Abang Poi, Bapa, Nini, Usu Noi, BuYah, Kaka Qistina(at the back)


Lil Bro, Suhaid and others.


Alai Yuyu (Ayu Audadi) and Alai Isaac (Mohd Asri Isaac)


Kaka Tini, Isaac, Ayu and Abang GRais..


New family photo, after Abang Es's Graduation Day last year *cant remember when*. From left hand at the back was Ka Dd, Me, Abang GRel, Abang GRais, Abang Cupoi. Sitting: Abang Es, Ajah R and Fathin.


Alai Syafii and Bhari


Nabil and Bhari.


Early this year, after tahlil at home. Shirah, Ayu, Zaki, Suhaid, Ajah R, and Isaac.


Same as above..


Abang GRel's family: Abang GRel, Ka June, Nabil, Bhari, Syafii, Shirah and Zaki.


Playing with Amit Es durang.


First day of Raya last year without Mia and Suhaid. Zaki, Shirah, Bhari, Syafii, Nabil, Ayu and Isaac.


Mama and Usu Noi.


Abang Es with his wide smile.


Back at Sengkarai house. Had a happy first day of Raya. Especially for Nini, who wont let that house rented to other people.


My sister Ajah R and our dearest cousin, QeyQie Sabtu.


Dad Hj Isa Hj Shahminan, Shirah, Mom Hjh Norrahmat Sidin and Mia.


Suhaid; Abdul Suhaid Rahmuni bin Zambri.


Mia; Nuur Amirah Musfirah Sajidah bte Zambri.


Dad's brithday last year. 18/5/2009.