I'm officially a GBS (1st of May 2010)

Okay, so yeah, today woke up as usual at 5.10 am. Then showered up. Check facebook, ada si Manis inbox. Then reply inboxnya dulu. Then had breakfast. Lapas atu jalan sekulah.

At school, datang pagi nampak si Manis lagi duduk arah tempat biasa. Then jalan ke class. Masuk class, tarus duduk pasal ngalih.Then cerita-cerita with Amy. Duduk arah tempat si Hakim haha! Inda ia mental tu aku duduk arah tempatnya ahh.

Then had Geo early in the morning. It was a sleepy environment but at least I didn’t yawn as much as other days. Learnt about flooding prediction and prevention today. No homework!

Economics was okay lah. Siuk, and kecalian pasal si Bob inda tetap jawapannya sekajap D lapas atu A tia jawapannya. Ada homework, but not much though.

Ada announcement tadi suruh all L6 and U6 students yang Islam turun at 9.30 am tadi. So keluar Econ awal. Then jalan ke foyer. Haha. Nampak si Manis tadi. Pikir tah pasal apa tadi kana panggil ahh, rupanya pasal siapa sudah abis ugama or inda. SUSPENDET!

Then break, jalan ke canteen bali minuman since I was so thirsty tadi. Then naik, tarus antar my bag arah L6-2 pasal after break was GP.

GP didn’t learn anything. Faiz, Ziqah and me main Scrabble tadi. Faiz and my points were tied, both 58 points. So si Ziqah manang. Then gave up. Si Faiz main Boggle with durang Si Muslim, Sham, Jijat and Hazirah.

After GP was Chem. And again, Chemistry was a no-lesson-session again. So we lepak-ing lahh. Si Hanee main guitar, si Mira **my cousin**, si Rahimah, Jijat and another girl atu menyanyi. Aku jadi pendengar setia durang saja. Then played a guessing game with durang. Its called “See outside the box”. Talur lahh. I was so slow, but at least much faster to figure out the trick before Jijat. Haha.

Then lunch!! Aku ber-poligami tadi. Haha! First wife si Amy, second wife si Amal, third wife si Zuhairah, fourth wife si Eernie, fifth wife si Bibieh and sixth wife si Qasdina. 4 more to go. But I’m reserving the 10th rank for si Manis. Haha. Yang paling muda yang paling banyak dimanjakan.. haha.. :DD I actually planned to go to the library masa lunch kemarin, sekali pasal lapar inda tia jadi.. haha..

After lunch was Socio. Ada homework baru lagi kana bagi. Alaaaa… haha. PEMALAS MATI JUA EHH! Haha. But well, we didn’t learn anything during Socio. So yeah, no sweat.

Then after Socio jalan ke library pasal tunggu bas. Membilak-bilak buku Econ saja tadi, but overall becerita with durang Mira. Haha. Then about 20 minutes lagi kan pukul 3 si Hazrul naik with his sister si Fa’iqah.. Si Hazrul talur!! JANGAN GAMBAR AKU BAH ZRULL EHH!! MATI KAU AHH!. XPP Tau ku salah ku Zrul tadi pagi..Haha!

Then masuk bas with Zimah. Gila bas GBS ahh! Bising!.. Aku satu bas with si Zimah, Rahim, Hakim, Helmi, Lynn, Eernie, 2 more girls and 2 Kevin yang senior. I was the first one yang sent home. Ingau driver bas tadi. “Dapat masuk kan ni lai arah simpang kamu ani? Yang macam banjir usulnya ahh?” Haha. Pacii jangan tah kita ingau ahh, selama kami tinggal disini inda pernah banjir pacii.. haha.

Texted with si Manis masa on the way balik ahh. Haha. Manis~ Don’t worry if you get darker skin after playing football. At least, makin Manis jua kan.. sikit lagi termain mata tadi arah urang Manis atu masa ia melambai ahh. Haha.

Imma have to do my homework as soon as possible baby.. SADIH NI SADIH.. Zrul, awu ehh sampat lagi ni kalau kan bedating sementara menunggu pukul 3 ahh. Haha. MIANG!! Inda Zrul ehh.. aku inda cematu. Haha. Sorry tadi menyakat kau pagi-pagi ahh.. Jangan diambil ke hati ehh..

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NADIAAAAAAAAAA!! HAHA. PUAS HATI TADI KANA NYANYIKAN HAPPY BIRTHDAY MASA LUNCH ARAH CANTEEN?? Haha

When I woke up this morning, you're the one I'm thinking.

Well, I woke up at 6.50+ am and went to the kitchen to check out what's for breakfast. And most of the foods were finshed by my nephews. hmph. Malang. :'( Nevermind. Namanya jua panuh rumah pasal ramai, manakan.. urang bangun awal banar sudah aku pukul 6 lalu.

Durang Fathin, Zaki, Nabil, and Shirah mengaji arah surau. Durang Mama and Bapa went to kubur. And then kan ke kedutaan Indon karang uruskan visa bibi pasal bibi kan balik cuti. Then tau ku tu kan kemana durang. Durang kan ke pasar Gadong tu lapas atu. Tempat yang paling ku inda suka pasal manusia-manusia nya disana atu..paham-paham tah.

Abang GRais went to work around 7 tadi. And durang Ka Tini balik ke banglo durang pukul 9 lalu tadi. sampat begambar lagi tadi with durang Isaac and Ayu.



Then buka laptop, wireless mau sudah. Then check facebook, si Manis ada inbox. haha. :D You made me smile again Manis.

Now, I'm going to do my Socio homework. Wohoo. Then revise Geo, just in case esuk sir bagi exercise. and then kan revise Chemistry. :D

Plus it's 21 more days left to Pa G Sabtu's wedding. Mannn! I know, I'm going to have to be the photographer again. Hope cuzz Qeyqie, Akid, Ziqah and Zimah will take the new mother with an open heart. Because Aunty Shidah is a kind person. Although I know, there'll never any woman to replace their late mother, Babu Sufiana. *al-fatihah*

Ziqah, Aunty Shidah, Qeyqie and Zimah a.k.a Zimbabwe *yang damit*

Aunty Shidah and Mama Tua my nenek yang paling supporting, Hajah Mariam Mat Rais.

Pa G Sabtu and family, plus QeyQie's boyfriend, Danny at the back.

And also, today is the 17th year of my late aunt Norsiah left the world. *al-fatihah* My cousin Zaim and Syafeenaz's late mother. And no one can even replace thier late mother in their heart, even until now they even remember their late mother.

To my cousins Zaim, Syafeenaz, Akid, Qeyqie, Ziqah and Zimah;
"Kamu... sabar ahh. I know your late mothers will be proud of you if they saw you grow up as kind people. and they'll be really happy if they knew that you still remember them not only in your memories, but also in your heart."

Courtesy of the two pictures from "Pa G Sabtu's Engagement ceremony Part II" uploaded by Asri Isaac Sr. and Photographed by Wardah Hj Isa.

A reminder for myself.

Things that I’ve learnt from what has happened.

1) Don’t trust someone too easily because they’ll in time bite you from your back or even worse, slowly through your heart. Especially a guy.

2) Don’t make fool of yourself, because you’ll be fooled very easily.

3) Even best friends can stab you, so don’t rely so much on your best friend. I’ve been in this condition where (a) She stole my boyfriend, yes, she was my best friend but now not so. And (b) Your own best friend makes use of you just because you’re a good student, and she’s trying to spoil you through blaming things that you don’t do.

4) Don’t get into a relationship with your good friend, because if things doesn’t go through the flow, you’ll eventually break your friendship.

5) Never hope so much from someone who’s really good in socializing because you don’t want to get embarrassed on your own for your stupid one-sided love.

6) Never believe when a guy say “I love you forever” because it will NEVER happen. And don’t fall for stupid unlikely promises.

7) When your mom say that your boyfriend is ‘not-that-loyal type’, believe it. Because your mom gives the best advice for your own good. Believe me, because I’ve actually been in that state not once but twice.

8) When you’re broken, don’t let that stupid feeling of yours control your whole brain. Wanna know why? Because that stupid feeling doesn’t make any use and it doesn’t even make any difference to what he did to you. How? Just think that there are better guys out there who deserves you.

9) Being beautiful outside is the worst thing:
Because (a) A guy that wants you to be his girlfriend would only actually want to show off your outside beauty and not your inner beauty. (b) Even your friend, will only want to be friends with you just because you’re pretty so that they’ll get more friends and it’ll help make them a popular kid. (c) Having so much admirer doesn’t help. (d) It doesn’t make any difference with being a bimbo.

10) Don’t get confused by the word ‘like’ and ‘love’ because they’re not even the same. If a guy say that he likes you, then it’ll just be a temporary feeling but if he say that he loves you, then his feeling will last much longer than the guy that likes you. And if you like a person, just forget about it because it’s just for a while but if you really like that person just go ahead and like him, it’s not even wrong but if you get heartbroken then blame yourself and not him because it’s you who puts so much stupid hope on him.

11) If a guy tells you that he likes you, don’t get mistaken easily. Because you may not be the only one person that he likes, there maybe more than 3 or 4 or more girls that he likes.

12) The most important thing is that, don’t be too naïve.

13) The best thing to get your stress relieved after a break-up is to swear him with what he deserves. Or just let other things get into your mind so that you don’t get too stressed up. And don’t give any space for another chance for those kind of guys.

So far this is what I have experienced. Well, I’m not saying that I have so much experience in this that I’m an expert. But it’s just that, I can’t stand to be a fool of myself and for everyone.

I’m not giving advice to anyone, so no offense. It’s actually just a reminder for me, to not get myself be fooled by anyone and of course, myself. I’m still hating myself right now, because I can sometimes forget about what have happened and that I didn’t actually learn for my mistake earlier.

I’m not saying that I don’t trust guys anymore, but it’s just hard for me to trust them because of what I have experienced. And I’m still thinking of how to get rid of those heartache which keeps following me since 2-3 years ago. Because it really hurts. I can’t even see or even read his **ex-** status on facebook because it just hurts!. And being cheated, is the worst thing which I’d like to avoid since I don’t want to get hurt for the third time. GOSH! I HURTS SO MUCH! I’m just a plain thin glass which can be broken easily, so guess that’s what I’ll still be in the future.

I want to escape from this hurting feeling which I’ve been able to get rid of in the past years, but it’s just that I don’t know why it’s coming back to me. I’m just hoping that this feeling will go away by tomorrow morning when I wake up from my sleep because it’s been haunting me since this morning at school. Felt like I wanted to cry, but it wouldn’t make any good it’ll only make people say that I’m just a crazy depressed little girl, but I’m not! AKU SAKIT HATI SAJA BAH ULEH IA!

I think atu saja kali, pasal aku inda sambung lagi. Ngalih ku sudah memikirkan pasal barang inda be-faedah.